Phew! What a challenging week it has been. For the last 7 days my husband has been unwell and getting progressively worse. He is the most healthiest person I know, in 20 years I can count on one hand the amount of times he has been sick so to see him in this state and rapidly declining was frightening to say the least. I felt completely helpless and at a loss as to how to comfort him. If I could have taken him onto my lap and rocked him like I have done with our children on numerous occasions I would have.
A second trip to the Doctor's this morning saw us being sent straight to ED. As the day stretched out before us there were many questions asked, history and obs taken, other patients coming and going and still we were there. All symptoms pointed to a neurological problem and so began an order of elimination. When a CT scan of the brain was mentioned to rule out the possibility of something nasty my heart clutched and my breath caught. Having to pick the kids up from school gave me the chance for some fresh air.
Up until then I had refused to even entertain the worse but on that lonesome drive to the school my mind started to wander. I have to admit that there was a moment there when I questioned what we would do if we were facing some serious illness. How we would cope with not having family around to pick up the slack or lend support. It's at times like this that not having family close by really hits home! Could I ask so much of friends if I had to? I had to pull over, I couldn't see through the tears. I sat in my car with the rain pounding down and felt completely deflated. I sobbed my little heart out, it felt strangely cleansing, then I prayed like I have never prayed before. Telling our children their dad was in the hospital was hard, I felt sick to my stomach. As nervous as I was about what the test results may show I put on a brave face and tried the best I could to play it down and ease their fears.
What was supposed to be an hours wait for the results dragged out to one hour, then two, then was creeping to three. Each minute felt like an eternity that I hope I never have to live again. Thankfully the scan results were clear!! On hearing the news I expelled a breath I hadn't realised I was holding. The sense of relief was huge!!
At this point Doctors are still unsure as to what is/was wrong. There is some speculation that medication prescribed on Monday to lessen the symptoms actually worsened them but who really knows.
All I know is that tonight I am extremely grateful for all that I have.
Thanks for listening, a hot shower and warm, cosy bed are calling my name.
Tammi x
24 comments:
aw no :( I am so glad the scan was clear! I hope they can find out what is wrong with him very soon. xo
Oh dear what a difficult time for you at the moment. Sending hope and prayers he is on the mend soon.
How scary Tammi.
Thank goodness the worst case scenario didn't eventuate. How our mind wonders in stressful situations like these.
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Wow Tammi, sorry you have had a tough time of it....will be praying for strength , health and a peaceful heart.
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What a very difficult week. Fingers crossed for a quick recovery now. During moments of sickness within your family it does make you so grateful for what you have and good health. Hope you have a nice weekend ahead:) nx
How awful for you, I'm so glad the results were clear and I hope you get some answers soon. Thinking of you all and sending hugs xx
Oh Tammi, I hope things are looking up and that there's no more need for tears. All the best. Thinking of you all. xx
Oh Tammi, I hope things are looking up and that there's no more need for tears. All the best. Thinking of you all. xx
Oh Tammi, I really feel for you, how frightening. So glad all is okay, well not okay but not seriously wrong.
Sorry I haven't stopped by as often as usual lately, the past month has flown by in a blur of colds, flus and teething. I opened your blog this morning to catch up on your posts but that was as far as I got :) Am off to have a little catch up now, although I can hear Sophie waking... so might have to be later on tonight :)
Take care xx
Oh My Gosh... how terrifying for you and your family! Sometimes I think about the "What if..." things... they scare me a lot! I am always very grateful for everything being ok at the moment! So glad the scan was clear! I really hope everything will be ok! xxx
Oh I am so relieved for you Tammi!
What a horrible wait.
My hubby has been sick for the last few months and finally had surgery a few weeks ago.
I can totally relate to having no family around to help. Luckily a friend helped me out with the kids. But it does add another layer to an already stressful time.
Such a heart wrenching and trying time for you lovely lady! Sending healing thoughts and energy to you and your beloved. Rest up as much as you can :) xxx
Oh my goodness! So glad that the results were clear. Both my parents have reacted dangerously to medications in the past, so it is possible.
Hope his recovery is quick and he is home soon.
Thinking of you x
Thinking of you Tammi, hope all is well and your hubby is on the mend. kindest Vicki x
Oh Tammi, I am so sorry to read about your hubby. Your poor love, I know I would be feeling every piece of what you were feeling, in your position. I am so pleased to read that everything is ok. Not good that he has been so ill though. Maybe it is a virus, there are so many of those going around, especially in the colder months. Hope he is doing much better now and you all have a nice family weekend xoxo
Kiaora taku tuahine ki roto i a Ihu Karaiti.
The answer to your question is "YES" you can and you must ask your friends! We are not just friends, but we are sisters in Christ! We will spend eternity together, so while here I want to help, and expect to be used!!
We prayed for you guys this morning, and that the docs will have wisdom. Love you x Karen
Tammi I hope your hubby is getting better. My son has reacted badly to medicine.....it was very scary. Hope things are improving and you have a good weekend. xxoo
Oh Tammi, you poor darling. What a horrid experience for you all. I am so pleased his results were clear. I hope you can relax together a little this weekend. J x
What a scare! I'll uphold your hubby and you and your family in my prayers. I hope you find out what is going on soon and for a complete recovery. Your experience hit a raw nerve with me, I know exactly the impact of what you have been through. Blessings and His comforting arms around you all, xxx Fi
Oh no Tammi what a awfully frightening scare for you and your family, share away it's good to get things off your chest. I do hope that your hubby is feeling better now and that you are too. Take care lovely. Thinking of you. xx
Oh geez Tammi, what a frightening ordeal!! I hope he is on the mend and it was just a nasty bug. The thought of doing it alone scares the life out of me, not to mention a whole part of you gone! I'll say a little prayer that everyone is healthy and well over at your place. Love to you lady..x
Oh Tammi, how frightening. I am so very glad the results turned out well. It's even more worrying when they are normally so healthy. It is so scary what medication can do. My husband took medication last June for an illness and it damaged his intestines. It was scary. I wish your husband bounces back very soon.
sending lots of love and good health vibes to him tammi. sorry to hear about how sad you've been feeling but do know that we are all here for you and your beautiful family. xx
Oh Tammi, I am so late in hearing this, and those hours. How long they must have been for you. I'm so glad the scan is clear, but they still need to diagnose the problem with your husband. And that is still so stressful. Hugs and prayers go up to you and your family tonight Tammi. xxxx
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